July 22,2011- my reading

I've been suffering with a migraine for 3 days and it is not letting up.  It happens once every several months where nothing seems to work until I hibernate into the dark and in silence.  With a toddler that is out of the question.  I ride it out until mother earth says she wants to send out rain our way, then can I have some relief.  It's frustrating because I can't function at the work place in front of a computer all day with customers bitching and complaining.  The weasel suggests to pay attention and observe your feelings and body.  Listen to what is happening to your body inside.  I have to get my migraines checked out.  This also signifies my menstrual cycle.  The ultra sounds that I have been getting all this month are indicating that I am not ovulating. They don't see any follicles at all.  But it's weird because in my blood work it indicates that my temperature rises at each visit which is an indicator that ovulation is about to take place.  I also get thicker mucus around the 17 and 18th of every month which also indicates ovulation.   It's all so frustrating.   To top it all off, I was sent to get a 3D ultra sound because the doctor was having a hard time seeing my left ovary.  I went to get my blood drawn for this visit and the nurse says to me" you are so calm".  I said to her "why are you asking?".  She said to me that there are so many women that come in here and are stressed and that it shows  on the expression of their faces and their body language.  I advised her that I already have a daughter and that this is my attempt to have a second child.  I'm calmer and not as stressed because I am going in with the attitude: of if it happens it will happen and if it doesn't I already have one.  She said" you have a great attitude!".  I know what these women have gone though and I was in their shoes too when I was trying for my first.  I understand how badly and stressful all this can be. You feel all alone and think that no one else understands you.  How some cultures put pressure on the woman to try to conceive.  Just  stop stressing, find a hobby that will divert your attention else where.  I found knitting and crocheting to be a relaxing hobby that I still do today.

  The rattlesnake tells us that the experiences that you're presently going through are an initiation into fulfilling your purpose as a healer.  Again I am here to share my story and help other women realize that they are not alone.  There is help and hope only if you are willing to work for what you desire.  The old saying "Where there is a will there is a way".  After my 3D ultra sound I met with another nurse who did not speak english that well and I had questions for her that she could not explain well.  I was upset because she kept saying to me: "you have to wait for Dr. Micheal on your review appointment."  I told her that my appointment isn't until a month from now and I can't wait that long.  I left upset with her because she said I had no eggs and I have nothing but a cyst.  Thoughts were going in my head of why am I waisting my time then and putting myself through this pain and poking around with my private parts if I have no eggs?  Then I called another nurse that I have known for 5 years now and asked her to explain my 3D ultra sound because there was a language barrier with the last nurse.  She told me that I do have lots of eggs but my ovaries are not allowing me to ovulate properly.  We know that I can get pregnant because I already have one child through this treatment.  All I need is to have my doctor prescribe medications that will help me ovulate properly.  Basically my brain is ovulating but my ovaries are not releasing any eggs from the sack.  Thank you PCOS for that.

  The ELK states stand tall and maintain your dignity no matter what, and others will treat you with respect that you deserve.  I no longer have to hide my feelings and be ashamed of my body and how dysfunctional it is.  I'm thankful that I didn't sit here feeling sorry for myself and took action on my own.  My own family would say: "so you don't have kids...enjoy your life and travel the world", " you don't have the burden or responsibility that a child brings with them".   What they failed to mention is the laughter, love and joy a child brings into your life.  Never a dull moment.

  We are done my investigative cycle monitoring this month.  We see Dr Micheal on August 23rd, 2011. He will then review my investigative reports from all the blood work and ultra sounds and then put me on a drug cocktail that will get me pregnant.  We will have to under go IUI treatment. At least I can look at my children and say I really,really wanted you because I worked hard for you.  That you are my miracle babies and you are loved.

the room- Yikes!

  I call this "the room".  This is where you walk in and have your external and internal ultra sound done.  It's the size of a walk in closet with a medical bed and stirrups and the ultra sound machine beside it.    The room has been enhanced to brighten it so you can see what the room looks like.  There is also to the bottom right( not shown in the picture) a study lamb that allows some sort of light in the room.  You can't see the "wand of pain" The apparatus that is used for internal examinations, but it looks like a long skinny dildo. Sorry for the visual people. The computer screen is where you can see in black and white inside your body.  The computer also prints out still images of the internal organs and such.  I thought I would share this with you and get a taste of what I see when I go in for monitoring.

Reading for me: How is my Fertility treatments coming along?

Today I'm working with Dr Steven D Farmer Earth Magic Oracle cards ( my favourite) and Doreen Virtue Healing with the angels Oracle Cards

The question I asked myself was: How is my fertility Treatments coming along?  

  I want to clear something that has been bothering me lately.   I am doing this to help others understand the difficulty in which woman like myself have in becoming pregnant due to PCOS.  I really don't care that people may talk behind my back or snicker and make stupid remarks.  I am here to educate all of you that are going through the same symptoms, letting you know that this is common and you are not alone and those of you that are ignorant because behaving in this fashion is called ignorance and uneducated.  It's funny, when I ask the question the study card came through.  I get some questions from my family: Aren't you embarrassed to tell people these things?  Why am I supposed to be embarrassed!  I'm not doing anything to be embarrassed about.  This is something that God has given me and I am challenging it for my better good.  I can either sit here and feel sorry for myself and be childless or take action and have my own dream family.

  The card study to me means to educate myself on PCOS and infertility treatments so I can pass along my learnings to all of you.  Educate myself on different PCOS treatments and find alternatives to drug taking.  If I have any questions about this condition and infertility is to ask my doctor or nurse at the clinic even if the question sounds stupid to me.  For example:  Yesterday July 13,2011, I went in for cycle monitoring where they did another internal ultra sound that left me in tremendous pain including today. I asked the ultra sound tech if she sees any eggs that are about to drop from my ovaries...she said no there are no eggs that are going to drop, but you have a large 4 cm cyst on your right ovary.  I left it at that.  When the nurse called me into discuss my visit, I asked her if it was still possible for a woman to have a period even though there are no eggs or egg that passes through the fallopian tube into the uterus?  She said yes.  I had no idea.  Apparently the period is the shedding of the uterus walls and if there is no sign of an egg, the uterus sheds the old uterus resulting in a period.  My periods are painful due to the cyst on my right ovary that fails to pop out.  See, I am continuously educating myself with this fabulous body of mine ( Sarcasm People).

  Dance/ Celebration Card- I'm feeling as if I need to celebrate my body and who I am as a woman.  A woman who will fight for my rights and for my dreams.  Celebrate the fact that I can use my anger, knowledge and use it in a positive way of expressing myself through this blog.  I also feel and know  that PCOS is hereditary on my mothers side.  My mom and I were talking about this the other day.  How she suffered from cysts and had a very hard time with conceiving my brother and I.  It took her 4 years to have my brother and 4 after him to have me with a miscarriage in between.    I've learnt through all this to stop and listen to some music and that life is not all about money and working, but to celebrate with loved ones and to celebrate you as a person and accept yourself and love yourself before you can go on and love another human being.

Reading for me: Monday, July 4h,2011

Today I went to the fertility clinic in Bolton, Ontario.  I got there for 8:30 am this morning and had a full Blatter that took 5 times to pee out. LOL!  Thought I would share that with you.  I walk into the office on the second floor and no one was there but me this morning.  I went into the lab section and had my blood drawn. This time they only took 1 vial which left my arm bruised from my tiny veins.   I then went into the ultra sound room where I had to remove my under garments and proceeded to lay down on the doctors table and place my feet in the stirrups. The room was darkened a bit so the ultra sound tech could see her monitor better.  As I was laying down she placed cold gel on her instrument and placed it on my belly to look inside my lower abdominal area.  I had to go empty my bladder a few times because she couldn't quite make out my ovaries.  After the external examination we had to do the internal ultra sound.  This my friends was  so uncomfortable that at times I wanted to cry out due to the pain.  The tech was gentle, but probing internally and poking at my ovaries was not a pleasant journey.  Especially when you are on your 3 rd day of bleeding (menstrual cycle). I asked the tech why they have to do this.  She stated that this was to check that the uterus has no damage from the c-section I received 4 year ago, measure my ovaries  and to see how many eggs there are.  After this internal exam, I know exactly where my ovaries are.  After this examination that took about 20 minutes, I went to see the nurse at the nurses station.  She then walked me through the procedures.   I have to come again for an ultra sound on the 9th day of my menstrual cycle to see when my ovulation will be.  I then asked her if I would be on the Metformin and Famera drugs that would help me ovulate.  She said that my doctor did not prescribe any drugs for now because I have been getting my period regularly.  He wants us to map out the ovulation and then he will tell us when to have intercourse. I also have to do a gel testing where they inject me with gel liquid and see if there are any blockages in my uterus or fallopian tubes.  This is because my husband and I have not gotten pregnant on our own even though my cycle is regular.  My husband as well has to do a semen analysis test to see if his sperm count has changed or is good enough.  

  This card represents the tower in the traditional tarot card deck.  In away my life was disrupted today by the poking and uncomfortable probing.  I have to drive over an hour to get to the clinic which starts my day earlier than it should.  This process of fertility is making me stronger and more educated in the area.  It helps me educate others to appreciate their children more, because some of us women have to suffer to have children.  In the future I will look back at this process and thank God for the teachings of being a strong woman and going after what is rightfully mine. That I didn't sit here in a 10 year marriage and say if it's meant to happen it will happen.  No, I made it happen. I knew my body and I knew there was something wrong.  If you don't do things for yourself no one will do it for you.  "I have every right to be a mother even if it takes me longer and harder to achieve"  That's what I keep telling myself and it helps. All you women with PCOS, don't take NO for an answer...It is possible to be a mommy.

My reading: July 3rd: will I be pregnant?

Wow! I couldn't believe the card that popped out for me when I asked this question: Will I get pregnant?  This is usually the star card in the regular tarot and in the psychic tarot by John Holland it's the Hope Card. It says, know that a special wish you've made may be fulfilled in time.  It is also Hope: That impossible can indeed become the possible.  Being told in the past that I can't conceive children.  You may not be able to have a second child.  What you believe can be possible will in fact come true.  The law of attraction.  Hope and trust in everything that you do and your dreams will come true.  Also by sharing my experience of infertility on here, I can help someone who may be going through this as well and see that they too are not alone.  That conceiving a child is possible if you have faith.  This was a great card for me today, since I called the fertility clinic to inform them of my first day of my menstrual cycle. I have to call on the first day and then I get booked for my ultra sound with a full Blatter and blood tests that will monitor my ovulation pattern.  So I am thinking positive that this month is the month that I get pregnant. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Reading for K.D: What does the future hold?

Reading done from top left to right. Then bottom Left to right

1. Past (Suffering in Silence) 

You were alone, depressed, wanting companionship, lost, very confused and hazy about your future and your life.  No one to turn to, to talk about how you felt inside.  It's not your personality to be flamboyant and loud.  You chose to be introverted.  You Hated God for a long time.  You must realize that you are the one who is in the drivers seat and can change your life and learn to let go of your pain. Just ask someone for help.  

2. Present (Throat Chakra)

This card is about your throat area.  Your vocal chords.  If you have something to say "Just Say it".  Voice your opinion and don't care how others see you, because really they have issues themselves.  Like in Card #1,You don't want to go back to being alone.  Speak up and tell people how you really feel.  Stop shying away or putting yourself down thinking your opinion doesn't matter.  This will relieve some mental stress.   You will also feel empowered and better about yourself.  You also need to express your creative side more.  

3. Present ( Patience)

This card is exactly what it says.  I don't feel that it is towards others, but towards yourself.  You need to be patient with your life.  Have some self control over your health, eating habits, feelings or family.  You're a bit spiritual.  You may want to develop this in the future.  I'm getting the feeling of you being in the spiritual sense of following a religious path.  Reach out to people with the same interests and they will open doors for you. Renew your faith in God and faith in yourself will shine.

4. Future (Truth)

You come to a part in your life where you have to choose A or B regarding your career.    You will have a spiritual awakening.  I'm feeling that your path is towards your religion and teaching, preaching or counselling.  Your spirituality is going to shock you.  Take your time deciding if this is really what you want to do, then do it 100%.  Trust your inner voice.

5. Future (Universe)

You will be greatly rewarded for your work.  You will finally find your inner peace and live a fulfilling life.  Everything you dreamed of or worked for is at your reach. It's all up to you to make those changes in yourself.  You will understand that your life was meant to be important in this world. You are a healer and you will also help others through your work to over come what you have over come with yourself and show them the way of a great life with purpose.

Bottom row Left to right

 You in the now

1. The Phoenix

You are the phoenix who starting to come out of the dark place and is ready for some change to occur.  You are slowly coming out from thoughts of failure and are ready for a rebirth.   An end to negative thinking and putting yourself down.  A new job is in the cards for you. Could be the religious focus stated above.  

2. The sun Queen

You have many dreams and goals, but not all of them can be achieved.  The ones that you can't obtain right now put them aside to do later in life.  You are trying to do too much all at once, but you are only one person.  Ask for help.  Make a plan of all the things you want to accomplish and check them off slowly one by one.  

3. The Sacred Union

A new love, relationship will be coming to you soon.  Just be patient and calm.  This is also a card that signifies inner love for thy self.  You will start seeing yourself in a much better light.  Your family, career and dreams will be under control and your heart will be at peace.  

All in all , your reading was all about loving yourself. When you love yourself and feel more positive,  a lot of doors will open;  Like the law of attraction.  

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Reading for K.M Money, Love & future

The reading was done from top left to right and then bottom left to right.

Top Row starting from the left:

1. The Moon (The Past)

You felt lonely, conflicted in your thoughts and with others (Family), Surviving on your own two feet soaring above every ones expectations of you.  Feeling confused about the future and afraid of what the future will bring you.

2. Lovers ( Present)

Found your love and you are working on manifesting a future with this guy.  It has come time in your life to decide if this guy is the person you wish to make a future with or move on.  You have been contemplating this for a while now.  You are questioning yourself on the relationship: How do I make this stronger?  How are we going to make this work financially?  You are feeling that you are the glue to this relationship and is starting to lose it's stickiness.  

3. Him (Page of Wands)

Hard worker, loyal, very driven to do his best, wants to impress you. He is lucky to have a woman like you. Doesn't feel he is worthy or good enough for you. He does love you.

4. You (The Empress)

Strong, saver, good with money and responsible. The dominate one in this relationship. You want a family and is feeling the need to settle down.  You want to be comfortable financially and in love.  You need to start taking care of yourself.  Doing this will also make you happier.  You will be comfortable in finances.  You won't win the lottery, but you will be comfortable because of your money saving sense.  

5. Future (Knight of Cups)

Strong future, lots of travel later in life.  There is love and family of your own in the future.  There will be some struggle with the relationship, but with your intelligence and strength it will prosper.

Bottom row- starting from the left

1. Past (Truth)

Wanting balance in everything in your life.  You keep dwelling on the past and evaluating it. You have learnt from your past, now use what you've learnt to forgive those that have hurt you. It is not worth keeping those emotions inside.  They will create greater stress and it is not worth it causing harm to your health mentally.

2. Present (Mental Conflict)

You carry a lot of self doubt and negative thoughts and feeling about yourself.  Stop sabotaging yourself. These thoughts are preventing you from being happy.  There is someone in your life ( family member) who is making you feel this way.  You have to remember that you have the strength and courage to be the better person.  Speak up and come to a resolution for your own mental heath and relief.  Now is the time to make amends with this person.

3. Future (Fertility)

Your own family, love , prosperity for you in the future.  In order to have all this you have to over come your self doubts, self abuse and make amends worth that family member.  Your future counts on it and once all those are meet, the future looks beautiful and bright.

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Cards used: LLewelyn tarot and Psyhic Tarot Oracle cards

The Magician #1

The Magician:
Crazy, multitasked, teacher, healer, wisdom, education, search for knowledge, in search for money and love, solution to problems, enlightenment, training, achiever, goal oriented, creative, new skills, self-employment, medical expertise, Craftsman,

The Fool

The Fool: 

The beginning of a journey, Innocence, spontaneous, crazy, solitude, a fresh start, symbol of a new born baby, second chance, adventure, time for a change, a new cycle in your life, excitement, careless, carefree, trusting with your heart not with your mind, confidence, leaving the past behind you, watch your step.

my cropped tarot deck

Doreen Vertue

Key words for Pentacles

PENTACLES:
(money & material things)
Element: Earth

Astrological signs: Taurus, Virgo,Capricorn

Key words:
Feminine, physical discomfort, money, merchant, someone that has to do with money, health, wealth, inheritance, real estate, study, education

Season: Winter

Direction: North

Timing: Years

Occupations: Dancers, sculptures, chefs, bankers, business people, accountants, property ,managers, builders, farmer, students, labours and construction workers.

Characteristics of people:
Brown hair or dark hair, dark eyes, dark complexion or skin, resourceful, service oriented, dutiful, practical, down to earth, realistic, insensitive, direct, efficient, sensible, decent, reliable, persistent, materialistic, money minded, studious, dull, educated, selfish, unimaginative.

Key words for Swords

SWORDS:
(troubles & Problems)

Element: Air

Astrological signs: Libra, Gemini, Aquarius

Key words: 
Masculine, forceful, emotions, most negative suit, mental problems, anger, stress, pain, struggles, warning of surgery, warning of divorce, separation, aggression, courage, boldness, intellect issues, sickness, accidents, death

Season: Fall

Direction: East

Timing: Months

Occupations: Music, computer graphics, illustration, journalist,travellers, arbitrators, doctors, lawyers, nurses, judges, paid advisors, police officers and military leader

Characteristics of people:  mental, communicative, detached, intellectual, cool, cold, serious, analytical, head over heart, strong minded, determined, truth seeking, insensitive, avoids intimacy, aggressive, spiteful, struggle, hostile, brown dark hair, light eyes, olive complexion

Key words for Cups

CUPS:

Element: Water
(emotions and love)

Astrological signs: Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces

Key words:
Feminine, emotions, love, feelings, happiness, family, motherly, pleasant, relationship oriented, intuitive/ psychic, weak, unreliable, sentimental, resentful, angry, concerned with other peoples needs

Season:  Summer

Direction: West

Timing: Days

Characteristics of people: Brown hair, dark blue or green eyes and fair complexion

Occupations: Singing, pottery, flower arranging, counselors, artists, musicians, psychics, welfare/social workers.

Key words for Wands

WANDS
( work & social)


Element: Fire


Astrological signs: Leo, Aries and Sagittarius

work, forceful, masculine, positive, energy, enterprise, business, desire, passion, want to be noticed, growth, self, labours, creative issues, business opportunities, ventures.

Season: Spring
Direction: south
Timing: Weeks

Occupations: Artists, writer, Entrepreneurs, sales person, teacher, preachers, politician

People: Fair, blond or red hair, dark or light eye colour, fair complexion

Character:  Cheerful, out going, vital, enthusiastic, fun loving, active, travel, leaders, sports, shallow, restless, full of life, impulsive.

Reading for JUJU- How does my dad feel about how I handled things & did he want those changes to be made?

  You protect yourself and your feelings are bottled up in side you. Your dad watches you everyday just like the bird is flying around the queen in the Queen of swords (Top Card).  He says you can let your guard down and try to let go of past or present hurts.  Don't worry too much. You made these changes and he is ok with it. He understands why and that's all right.

  Change is good.  The change had to do with a custom that was not kept. Get the feeling that it is related to property: house, land or a business that belonged to your dad or was in your family for a long time. This change happened quickly.  You made this change because it felt right to you.   Your decision was  genuine and tried to be positive all the way through even though you were getting family members against it.   You felt like people were holding you back and that enough was enough for you.  This change was very difficult for you because of the emotions and feelings you were battling with.  I think this change had to due with a work related issue. Change of job that required some travel or relocation.  I have a strong feeling that it was property related. Change of residence.

  Your father was a man who could stand up to anyone. He was clever and had a great sense of humour. He inspired many with his personality.  A person who people were drawn to.

  You were uncertain which way to turn. You had to make a decision based of your feelings and your gut even though your head was saying something else.  You hold your emotions inside. You have to tackle your problems while they are fresh, because if you wait they will still be there waiting.  I sense that this brought on family conflict between family members.  During this time your eyes became open to know who your true friends are and which family members you can trust.   You also used your intuition to make this decision/change.  It was kind of done blindly, but it was the correct one.

  You fought for this outcome, and your dad is ok with it.  I also see  a new job coming or it already happened for you or your husband.  There was more traveling to get to this job played a part in your decision making.  You'll be going on vacation soon and possibly deciding on getting another car.

All in all we have to make decisions based on our current situation and that benefits you and your family.  Once the change is made run with it and stand by what you chose.

Hope this helped. Many blessings my friend.

My Recommended books

I want to share some of my book selections and review them.  One of the best books for a beginner Tarot reader is to invest in the book The Tarot Bible.  It has a lot of information that will keep your attention and quench your thrust for this knowledge on Tarot. It is all done n colour , which helps because you can compare your cards along with the images in the book.  It give a ton of different spreads and explains briefly numerology, astrology and the history and it's proper use of Tarot.  I give it a 8 out of 10 stars-********

Tarot Shadow work is a book on healing yourself with Tarot.  It is interesting but it did not hold my attention very long.  Probably because I am still learning the tarot and want to know it completely before I wonder into other ways to to use this craft.  I don't believe in spell work either.  I believe in prayer. Spell work to me in my opinion is not to be worked with, unless you are very confident and knowledgeable in what you are doing.  I rather pray.  So my rating of this book is 4 stars out of 10- ****


Psychic Tarot:  This definitely something that I am interested in and it is not for the beginner.  This is not a read and then put away book. There are lessons in every chapter.  Make sure you have a high lighter to high light important info or a workbook with you.  I recommend this book for the advanced reader.  It teaches you how to be more intuitive and how to see more into the cards with your mind.  Stars: 8 stars out of 10- ********


Tarot for Life:    Very informative for the beginner.  There too is a lot of information on how to treat your cards, cleansing, spreads.  How to read to others and for yourself.  The images are in black and white. This is just like any other beginner Tarot book out there on the market.  Nothing different.  A great book to start with.  Stars: 7 stars out of 10- *******

1st entry: Fertility treatments with Tarot

 I am sitting here in the waiting room and see all the different cultures and faces in this fertility clinic.  It takes over an hour to drive here.  Luckily I work 25 mins away from here.  I left work today to meet the doctor who will help in pregnant us with a second child. I hope it will just be one and not multiples, then again there is a risk of that.  It's stated as a fact that this procedure IUI is a 25% chance of becoming pregnant.    If It happened for me the first time around with my daughter then I am hopeful that it will work again.
  There is silence in this room and all you can hear is the TV playing the movie The sisterhood of the traveling pants.  There are couples that sit together but they seem alone and in deep thought.  I know what they are thinking, because I too was there 4 years ago.
  I found it fascinating that I pulled this card out this morning as my daily reading.  I usually sit in my car, parked at my works parking lot and pull a card for the day.  "What will today bring or what do I have to learn today?" is usually how it goes.
  This card means family, happiness, health relationship, true love, joy, you are loved, great support from a loved one. It was perfect because it confirmed for me that this is the right thing to do.  I had my doubts because I know how painful the process of a fertility treatment is; not only physical but emotion too.
   This is my way of sharing what it is like to go through fertility treatments, pcos and how tarot can help provide an insight to the situation.

Reading for H.H: What day did my father die on and what did he die from? Name of father Edward Joseph Christopher H

Eight of Swords:
Your dad was a hard working man. He was a handy man, knew how to fix things and loved his job/work and his family.  He was good with his money and knew how to save.  He loved to learn new things. I get the feeling he was self employed and of the mind set " If you're  gong to do something , do it once and correctly".   I am also getting  the day of his passing being on Saturday. 


Queen of swords:
You are the lady siting in the chair, holding the sword as protection.  You are protecting yourself from your pain of the loss of your dad.  You are strong and need to know that you can let your guard down and accept that you are not alone. Let go of your pain.  He is with you, just look up and he will be there like the bird in the sky that is depicted on this card. He is watching over you.  You'll be all right.


Seven of Swords:
I'm getting the feeling that he died unexpectedly and to his surprise too.  He died from an indirect cause, so he was not killed or suicide was not a factor.  He needed medical attention and he refused it.  He was running away from medical help because he felt that he was strong enough to cure himself.  a feeling of guilt on his part is what I'm getting.  He didn't want to bother anyone.  He was robbed from his life by an illness that could of been treated by aggressive medical treatment.  His passing was almost a relief for him because some of his troubles were now gone except for his concern for 2 people that he is strongly connected too. These people are represented by the 2 swords that  are left standing by him in the ground.  Possibly family members.  He looks over his shoulder and watches them even though he is not going to be there physically. 

Reading for H.H: Where is my relationship with R.B going?

Six of Swords:
You have come a long way from what you were in the past. More initiative with yourself and relieved from past stress and troubles.  You represent the woman in the boat being rescued by a young man R.B.  You are finally taking your life into your own hands and not being influenced by others.  You are heading into calm waters now where in the past you were up and then down like waves in stormy water.  R.B makes you feel safe, protected and you can share every detail with him without being afraid or judged.  You can be yourself.  He is the young man in the boat protecting you from harms way and leading you to a life of calmness and happiness. You both share the love for traveling. You may be traveling in the near future, possibly a cruise.  You will not suffer anymore when it comes to the matters of the heart because you know now what you want and where you want to be.  You have learnt from your past experiences and are now ready to take the leap with someone.

Six of Pentacles:
Finally you are getting what you deserve. Someone who treats you with respect and who adores you.  He will share everything with you. He is a giving person and you love that as you watch him do this with your own eyes. He is not selfish.  You don't have to worry about being taken care of.  You will be coming into some money that is rightfully yours.  I see a new business being started by you or you helping someone start a business.  You are even going to lend some money to a friend to help them out with their education.  It seems that R.H is also good with his money. You both balance each other out and that is a great thing to have.

Queen of Swords:
You have a strong will and personality.  You have no problem standing up for yourself.  It's time to let R.H know how you feel and what you want in this relationship.  You are clear in what you want, just share it with him.  You may know an older woman whose relationship or marriage is not the healthiest and she suffers everyday.  Possibly a mother, grandmother, friend or aunt.  she is sad and emotionally drained.  By seeing this you know that you don't want what she has and do not want to become her.

All in all, the cards indicate you've met R.H in the spring, that it is a young relationship.  It is healthy thus far and it is a relationship that you  dreamt of for a while now and you now have it.  I do see you both in a long serious relationship but I don't see marriage yet.  I see you both working on career building before a marriage decision can be made.

A reading for N.C: Question asked: What is going to happen between **** and I?

Seven of Swords:

Someone, you or him is being deceitful, not honest either with the relationship or with what they really want for the future in terms of this relationship. Someone is keeping a secret about how they really feel. Are you lying to yourself that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with or are you convincing yourself that this is the person just to settle because of pain in the past?

Eight of Swords:

You feel trapped or blinded to your feelings or relationship. You feel powerless because you want more,but don't know if he is on the same path as you. You've become comfortable in this relationship and are afraid to move on almost to the point of forgetting who you are and sabotaging yourself which is easy to do. Remember you have choices and don't wait for someone to rescue you or make a decision for you. You have free will.

Six of Cups:

You need to feel happy again,like when you were a little child. You are naive and innocent and enjoy your playfulness. You are the giver in this relationship and is tired of always giving and never taking in return. If there is a secret or lie you need to open up and talk it through with each other because this relationship can take a turn for a break up in the fall or become serious in the Fall. There is a future if this is resolved. The 2 children represent family, children and a home, if you are willing to open up and talk things out as well as forgive.

Whatever the future holds there is a big lesson to be learnt by you soon. Deep emotions are involved which may also strengthen your spiritual journey. In the end, know that you are not alone and that we have the ability of creating our own paths and use the gift of our free will.